New Year New Body
I have no idea how I forgot to type all of those blog post. Well actually I just got lazy but who’s fault is that? We’re finally out for Christmas break and it’s almost time for people to start posting new year new me. Personally I’d rather post new year new body. By Summer 2022 I want abs minus the work. A lot of resolutions are about to get made as well. I try not to make any so I don’t feel bad for not completing them but my ears are ready to hear someone else’s. Maybe 2021 will be where the money resides, purr. I really pay like $20 a month for this website and never use it, this is embarrassing. I constantly set myself up by accident but it normally leads to an interesting story to tell my friends about and maybe one day they’ll use me as a source on the APUSH DBQ’s, so there’s that. I keep on and off studying for the SAT in March by the way, college and school literally feels like a scam. I don’t wanna go to school but I want a larger chance of being able to say I own a mansion. As you heard in my unpopular opinions video someone could literally drop out of school right now and become one of the worlds most successful people... won’t be me though. I don’t even exactly know what I want to do when I get older I just know I don’t want to work a 9-5 my entire life ya know? Not that anything is wrong with that, I just don’t see that working for me. I’m think politics? Or maybe just law in general? Well find out in the future. I don’t think I’ve done anything bad enough to get cancelled 18 years from now. Wow! I don’t know why I didn’t try this earlier but I’m typing my notes and it’s 4:49am, it really feels like I’m sending an extremely long text message and I’m really just vibing. While I’m in this mood let me grab my AirPods and cut on the SZA. I realized recently I didn’t miss being around people as much as a I thought I did. I really needed time to myself and didn’t even realize it. We got out for Covid in March but when sophomore year ended I pretty much fell off with a lot of people I went to school with. No beef, I guess they just weren’t my vibe anymore and at some point we just totally stopped speaking. Eventually I also realized that the only reason I was friends with a lot of people here anyway was because we had classes together and I had to deal with them frequently. If it weren’t for that we probably would’ve never spoken at all. For the most part I’ve totally turned to the people I’ve met outside of school, so like extracurriculars and the interweb. When Summer started the people I didn’t get to see often were the ones constantly checking on my every single day up to now. When school rolled back around and I was the only person in my school friend group doing virtual school I realized I had bad friends period. They had only started speaking to me for answers and help. It was never how are your classes going Amare? How are you doing? It was just, How long was your essay? What did you type for the discussion question? I’m not even mad at them anymore, I’m past that now. I’m losing friends left and right but I just wish them love and light. Something else I noticed was that I’ve been consistently giving social media less control of my life. I stopped caring about how many likes I got, who followed who, and what other people were doing. I’ve just been in my own lane with me and my good vibes. I’ve just been continuing to learn to to accept people for who they are. At some point I was wondering if God wanted me to be a mechanic because I really just felt like I could “fix” people. I’ve accepted that if people really wanted to change they would and until then, you have to accept what they show you the first time. By that I mean if the first few times interact with someone if they’re telling me about what someone else is doing I’m gonna believe they’re a gossip until they prove otherwise. Accepting what you’re shown can help a lot with learning to tolerate those around you. If you don’t like them, don’t bother them. You don’t have to be mean to them or be mean to each other just don’t intentionally gaslight them or say things to hurt their feelings. I know I said don’t say things to intentionally hurt them but a special case would be if it’s the truth. Sometimes the truth hurts but, it will set you free even if you don’t like it. Wow this went on longer than I expected, I just finished Garden and it’s 5:24am let me go get some sleep. Amare out losers.